Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Happy 3rd Birthday, Macy Li!!!!

Dear Macy Li,

Wow, how can I, using mere words, adequately describe how deeply I love you and how profoundly thankful I am to be celebrating birthday #3 as your mommy?!  Needless to say, you are the apple of our eye and bring us immeasurable joy!  You've been ours' for almost 2 years now, and I still can't wrap my mind around the thought that we missed the first 12 1/2 months of your sweet little life in China.  I will always wonder about that time before we knew you.  I suppose there will never be answers to most of my questions.  Or yours' for that matter.  I'll just have to be at peace with that. But one thing I know for certain is that before you were born, when you were being fearfully and wonderfully knit together in your birth-mother's womb, God knew ALL the answers.  He had ordained ALL your days before one of them came into existence.  His plan was/is greater than ours'.  He knew that we would be your forever family.  I will forever be in awe of that.  Of how He wooed our hearts toward adoption, and specifically toward China, and brought us to the place of stepping out in faith onto the "unknown" path where He was leading.  I shudder to think that I could have missed His plan (YOU) for fear of the "what-if's"....I am so thankful that He took me on a journey of learning to really BELIEVE Him to equip me to do what He was calling me to do.  Every day, I look back and am humbled to recall just how He orchestrated your entire life story.  Baby~Girl, He has big plans for your life, this I am certain of!  I have no clue what they'll be, but from what I know of you, they have to be big.  Already, at age 3, He has gifted you in so many ways....I can already see a heart of mercy and forgiveness, a tender heart toward the things of God, a heart of praise, a joyful spirit, a free spirit, astonishing intelligence, beauty from the inside out, a love of prayer, and on the list goes.  You ARE fearfully and wonderfully made, and I know it full well.  What a privilege to be your mommy!  I am humbled to wear that name.  You were born in my heart back in 2005, 2 years before you were even born in the flesh.  Macy Li Ming, I have loved you since before you were conceived.  Thank you for the joy you have brought into my life, Daddy's life, and all of your brother's lives.  We feel like the most blessed family in all the world to have you!  We love watching you grow, even though selfishly, we wish we could keep you little.  But we know that walking through life with you is going to be exciting.  We'll have your hand and cheer you on, every step of the way.  Bless you, our little Asian angel.  We celebrate the day you were born!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you to the moon!